Nothing in Particular

Once in a while, you feel like writing all the nonsense thats going on in your head. That once in a while happens to be now, and this post is definitely going to live up to its title.

The mind is so fickle. Some days you feel everything to be such a drab. You hate the weather no matter what. If its sunny, you think its too sunny and if its raining, you think its too gloomy. You hate the fact that you have to come to the same department, same lab every day. You hate the routine. You don't feel like waking up in the morning and wish it was saturday, so you could sleep for the entire day. You miss home terribly, but when you pick up your phone to make a call, you realize you don't really have anything to say unless you want to whine about everything in general, which is in fact stupid, and so you end up not calling. These are the days when you look at the half empty side of every single thing, and that too, for no apparent reason. On such days you scold yourself and get on with life once again.

Then, there are other days...the bright, happy, cheerful days. You love the weather and you think its just right, not too sunny when its bright and not gloomy when its raining. You love the cold breeze and want to get drenched in the rain. You love your work and wish there were more than 24 hours in a day to finish everything you had in mind. You want to finish a considerable part of your work, read a novel, play, talk to your closest friends for hours...and you want to do all that in a single day. You don't want your day to end. Well basically, you are in the most jubilant state of mind and you simply love life. On these days you feel grateful for everything you have and see the sunny side of everything.

So that's it. Abrupt ending, I know. One might have thought I would conclude it by describing the state I'm in right now. Not happening. Maybe I'm feeling blue, maybe I'm in the highest of spirits, or maybe I'm somewhere in between. It's a fickle mind after all. Could be anywhere! :-D

So, like I said, nothing in particular.

xxRS

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