When does it hit you that you've grown up? It hits you when one of your closest friends from school gets married. When you meet your school friends, some of them after years, and wonder aloud, "So, who's next?" You look at all your friends and you realize that everyone of them has become quite serious about their careers, while you thought it was just you all along. You no longer talk/behave childishly(well, you realize this only because the image you have of the person you are talking to is from school, and now, that same person seems grown up and mature), instead you have long discussions. When someone says that they're in a relationship, you don't tease them, you're not even surprised, you almost expect it. You meet up these old friends of yours and talk about what they're going to do next, how their careers are shaping up, and stuff like that. And, when you want to steer away from a serious topic, you start talking about all the silly stuff you and everyone else did in school. Old stories about teachers, classmates crop up and you reminisce about the times when what made you nervous were your school exam results, and everything else was in sweet abandon. Now, life itself has become an exam of sorts.
But, it hits you the most when, just as you're saying bye to your friends, you realize that the next time you'll get to meet all of them together will be at yet another friend's wedding. And every time there's a wedding and you'll all come together, you'll be more grown up.
I'm feeling so weird today. I'm so happy that I met so many friends of mine. And yet, thats not enough. I don't want to just talk about the good 'ol days, I want to go back there. How I wish we had never grown up at all and were still enjoying our adolescent worlds. I wish I had a time machine now which would work in reverse. I'm feeling so old today. Thats how life works, I guess. Its a monotonously increasing curve. No way to change that.